The other side

Since august my life has taken a rather abrupt change, seemingly for the worse. I have gone from a recovering self harmer to an active one, the only person that knows is harry. I don't have the guts too tell anyone else. the only problem is there's a new guy on the scene... mark. He started off lovely but now it's all got complicated and to be totally honest i have no idea anymore... Everything has dramatically changed and i don't honestly know if i will cope with this unexpected collapse of anything you could call ordinary in my life. Its time for me too grit my teeth an push through but i don't know if i can, im currently failing so how is this going to get any better?

I have now gone back to the comfort of my lifestyle when i was 13, drugs booze and self harm... how the hell can i get out of this one?? one things for sure i know im falling and im positive i dont have a safety net too catch me on the way down.